8 tablespoons of Grødris (rice)
4 cups milk
3 tablespoons vanilla sugar
2 1/4 cups whipping cream
1 cup finely chopped almonds
1 whole almond, for the prize
dusting of cinnamon
Cook the rice with anticipation.
Let the scent of cream and sugar rise
into the air. Mix with childhood memories.
I can still taste my mother’s memories –
perfect holidays far from home,
away from her own unwed mother,
free of burden and shame.
I can feel her glowing as she would
take that first bite and let the
sweet sugar excite her tongue.
I still see her squirming in her chair
like a little girl who was once happy
with her favorite treat, and herself.
Sometimes I hold my breath around
vanilla sugar, afraid of my tears,
and sometimes I breathe it in
so deep that she still feels
alive inside of me